Let me tell you a little about myself, as you can guess, I’m Mexican. I can speak Spanish, I have awesome friends and an amazing family. Make good grades in school, I’m a class officer, I have a Job as a CNA, and I help people with their problems, sounds like I have it all, right? Not really. Just so you know, I’m about to put myself on blast, if you don’t like it, stop reading now. I am Joshua Gonzalez and I’m clinically depressed, suicidal and under appreciated. I had a wonderful girl named Felicia, but I ignorantly let her slip through my fingers. I have an amazingly best friend named Danielle, we’ve been having some problems, but I hope that’s fixed now. I have 5 brothers (only 2 are biological) Austin, is a smart ass know it all and I wouldn’t have it any other way. He gives me the most passive advice making me chose my own path. Aj is the jock that everyone loves, he has been there since day one. he always gives me the down to earth advice. Keeping me grounded. Ryan is the baby, he is just like me. He tells me exactly what I’d tell other people, helping me take my own advice. These are my hermanos, I love each one of them. They have their faults, but I guess I do too. But, even after all the good people in my life, it’s still a challenge to get by everyday without wanting to cut like I used to. Without crying like a little pussy. Without giving up. Because you see, depression is a chemical imbalance in my Brain, I can’t help it, I try to look up and see people who love me, but it’s just so hard to, but I swear, I will not give up, don’t count me out, I’ll hang on and come through, I just may need a crutch now and again. But that’s why I have my brothers lol